Happy New Year!
How was your holidays? Hopefully everyone is safe and sound.
This morning I was reflecting back over the last month wondering what exactly has changed physically/mentally/emotionally. Honestly, very little.
Physically my gut is starting to get most of my chunk and shaving is beginning to get tiresome. Other then that everything else is about the same. Lately I have been getting “Sir” ‘d a lot more so that is a plus!
Mentally – Finding it a bit harder to multitask still. Not sure if this is burnout from working so much or if it is hormones.
Emotionally – This has to be the only area of actual change since my last post. Emotionally I feel much more withdrawn or uncaring. Its…. unearthly. I find myself looking at people while they speak and not giving a hoot about what they are saying. It’s disturbing, really.
More and more I find myself thinking about the future and being pigeonholed into a career that I absolutely loath. I want to start-up my own company, but without the resources that just isn’t going to happen which is causing me serious distress.
Also, I’ve been a complete jerk for the last few weeks. I’ll do or say something then immediately face palm.
Who is this person I’m turning into? Is it me? Because right now I feel like a Neanderthal with modern aspirations.
Dear lord! Someone hit me over the head with a club already.
On that note, I would love to hear what other transmen have had to deal with in their thinking/shift from clear to haze. Please PM me or comment!
Till next time,